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stellas_journal @ 2004-09-25T08:47:00

2004-09-25T15:59:47Z

Would anyone want to bang you? by phobia
Name:
Favorite Food:
Wants to Bang you:
This many times:	121

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OOoh I got a hottie. Wee...;)

Buenos Dias...

2004-07-24T00:43:17Z

Sorry I haven't been writing in here...I've been writing in my Xanga so check it. I hungout with J.f. last night, and I'm super happy. :) I like him lots...Well POST now, but make it good, cuz I love you all...<3

:o)

2004-07-19T00:18:40Z

Wow hehe now I'm really happy...Yay. :) I feel special. I really can't stop smiling now...no one will ever know why. Te hehe well only a few randomly selected special people. Haha.. <3

J.f.-3 days! :)

Aww...

2004-07-18T06:50:35Z

Wow...I really like someone. I can't stop smiling. :) I haven't been this happy in a long time. Yay...3 days. Ayesh your awesome I love you... <3

Wow...

2004-07-17T19:39:31Z

You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you
like it rough, and of course you like to pop a
cap in any wiggers ass.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
brought to you by Quizilla

Haha this is awesome...Ster I told you I was straight up Gangsta. :)

Sigh...

2004-07-16T02:09:25Z

Wow this song reminds me of him...I miss him alot. I know there is nothing that will ever change the way I feel about him. I love him still, and I always will... </3 J.f.-6 days! :) Chub-bay baby (Ster)- I'ma miss you...Have fun! Broken this fragile thing now And i can't, I can't pick up the peices I've thrown my words all around But I can't, I can't give you a reason I fell so broken up And I give up Just want to tell you so you know Here I go scream my lungs out And try to get you You are my only one I let go but there's no one That gets me like you do You are my only, my only one Made my mistakes let you down And I can't, I can't hold on for too long Ran my whole life in the ground And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone Somethings breaking up I feel like giving up I won't walk out untill you know Here I go scream my lungs out And try to get you You are my only one I let go but there's no one That gets me like you do You are my only, my only one Here I go dishonestly Leave a note For you my only one And i know You can see right through me So let me go And you will find someone Here I go scream my lungs out And try to get you You are my only one I let go but there's no one That gets me like you do You are my only, my only one...

stellas_journal @ 2004-07-14T21:43:00

2004-07-15T05:35:29Z

hi im kylie cornell and im a slut! SMILE! im writing to you all...listen up! k whoever is writing all those gay things in ali's comment shit thingy that are really mean. U best be shutting the fuck up otherwise your gunna deal with me. god knows id do anything for that ali girl! lol haha but yea me and ali had fun tonight with all those hotties! ali i love you ur the ultimate hottie! i wanna be a guy so i can date u. lets drink! good bye

Yay!

2004-07-14T19:12:44Z

Yay...I got my comment links working. So everyone get a postin'...

Shucks...

2004-07-14T17:53:08Z

Yesterday I went to Rhi's we just hungout chilled you kno the usual. Then Rhi had to go to the Chiropractor so we took a field trip, then when we got home we had Waldo's bbq it was tasty. Austin and Jami rode over in Austin's golf cart so we rode around. Haha we busted up Austin's golf cart so bad. Well actually it was Austin and his amazing driving. Then of course the scary storm came, and we all departed from Rhi's house. Oh ya we also got the super news that Ajay was busted by the Cops and he had bud on him...yay. I really want to talk to him, but I havent been able to yet. Rhi left early this morning and wont be home till Saturday...which sucks. I kno she'll do good at Nationals tho. Yay go Rhi. Uh I'm bored and tired so ya...peace out.

J.f. 7 days!

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Sorry it's been a couple days...

2004-07-13T18:44:53Z

Man parents suck...I'm 'grounded.' I hate being grounded! I've been sitting around for like 4 days doing absolutly nothing. The electricity went out yesterday for like 4 hours with added to the boringness. Well anyways...me and Ajay are talkin alot more now. Which I can't say is a good thing. He came over Saturday night and ya idk. We're over...we're supposed to be over. He's confusing me. Of course I've been talking to J.f. alot too...he's one kool kid. Yay he's coming home soon, and we're gonna chill. Then my babe Ashley is coming down the 28 and she'll be here for 5 days then we're going back there for 5 days. It's gonna be awesome. Hopefully I will get out of this house soon...believe me I need to.

Interesting...

2004-07-10T18:49:56Z

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	delicious
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	light up a day
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	everlasting

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Our 'Adventure' anoche...

2004-07-07T02:38:36Z

Well last night I went and stayed the night at Rhi's. We were sitting around being bored...well I was talkin to J.f. on the phone and Rhi was getting mad at me, but that's beside the point. We needed something to do so of course we called our trusty friend Austin. Austin got his golf cart taken away and wasnt allowed out...It was 12 at night. So me and Rhi decided to take a walk to Austin's house. It took us like a half an hour to get there. We almost couldn't find his house, but c'mon it's me of course I remembered where Austin's casa was. So when we finally arrived there we had to wait outside for like 20 minutes cuz Austin's mommy was awake. When we finally got in his house we sat and watched Ghost Ship for a bit with his brother. Then we decided to go chill in his room. It was interesting...I dressed up like a 'gansta' midget...It was awesome. We had a bunch of fun being funny. You kno how we do. We eventually needed to get home before Rhi's dad woke up at 5, which sucked because we were dead tired. We wanted to just stay the night, but we had no excuse to tell her parents. So we left at about 4:20...yet again you kno how we do, and we walked our asses home. We got home at like 4:50 changed real quick and 'fell asleep.' It was awesome...perfect timing. Ya last night wasnt that bad...it was better then sitting home all night. Well I'ma go chat online and what not...later.

J.f. <3 ...Stephen

The 4th O' July...

2004-07-05T22:48:26Z

Yesterday my parents were being bastards as usual and they made me go to Tempe Town Lake with them. They let me bring Amber tho which was pretty tight, but they wouldn't let Rhi come...Rhi probably had fun last night anyways. Tempe Town Lake wasnt as bad as I thought it would be...ya the music sucked, but we saw a bunch of our friends there which made it fun. The Fireworks were pretty kool but they were so long...my foot fell asleep. We got home about 12 or sumthing I was so tired. I tried going to sleep but Amber woke me up and I beat her up. Haha I love you Amber. So we ended up waking up and talkin till like 4 in the mornin' geeze. Amber knows me so well...she like described me and my life perfectly it was madness.Then we went in the kitchen and got food...you know how we dooo. Then we finally fell asleep, and didn't wake up till like 1. That was my lovely 4th O' July. Wow I'm outie....later.

J.f.-Wish you could've been here...<3

Argh...

2004-07-03T21:05:17Z

Wow I totally fuckin hate my parents so much. I'm going to kill myself...

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Ayer (Yesterday)

2004-07-03T17:12:06Z

Yesterday started out pretty boring. Well Rhi stayed the night the other night then she went home and we both cleaned because we thought we were going to the mall but that didn't end up happening. So I just went over there and Amber, Sammi, Me, Rhi, Kati, Peter, Cody, Eric, Austin, and Anthony hungout, went swimming, and rode around on Austin's golfcart. Ha...and we got in trouble with an off duty pig (cop) smoking a Cigar. Luckily no one fell off the golfcart and got badly injured this time...AMBER. It sucks tho I had to go home at 10:30 cuz I was supposed to have Soccer this morning at 8, but I didn't end up having Soccer so I woke up all early and got ready for nothing. Since I was at Rhi's I didn't really get to talk to J.f. last night. So that sucked. I think I might be going to the mall today, but who knows. Poor Stephen is sick. I'm sorry...get better. Well I'll talk to ya'll online...later.
+sTeLlA+

J.f. ...<3

El Dia...

2004-07-01T19:58:35Z

Yesterday was The Vans Warped Tour and I'm angry I couldn't go. Argh instead I sat around my house, laid out, talked to J.f., and recieved calls from my good friend Stephen at Warped Tour. It was pretty tight tho...Stephen called me from Coheed and Cambria, Taking Back Sunday, and he tried to call from Story Of The Year but that's a different story. Hmm...Yay I'm happy. I've been talkin to J.f. in Missouri alot. Hehe wow. Omg I'm talkin to Kels. :) She's home and better. I'm soo happy now. I was so worried about her geeze you have no idea. Wow things are getting better and better. I'm excited and anxious... ;)
_Stella

I miss you J.f. <3
Stephen Friday will be awesome. I miss you too...
I miss all my ladies too don't worry.

Survey...

2004-06-29T07:43:10Z

1.Survey: Yipee...
2. Ran away: Yes
3. Pictured your crush naked: Hmmm...wow
4. skipped school: Nope
5. broken someone's heart: I think... : \
6. been in love: Yes
7. Cried when someone died: Yes
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: Yes
9. kissed the same sex: Yes a peck
10. Done something embarrassing: Of course
11. Lied: Sadly yes
12. Cried in school: Yes
WHICH IS BETTER
13. Coke or Pepsi: Coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: Sprite
15. Girls or Guys: Guys of course
16. Flowers or Candy: Both
17. Scruffy or Clean shaved: Depends
18. Blondes or Brunettes: Doesnt matter
19. *dances patiently*: I love to dance
20. Tall or Short: Preferably taller then me
21. Pants or Shorts: Pants
22. Night or Day: Night
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: Eyes, Smile, and Personality
24. Last person you slow danced with: J.f.
25. Worst Question To Ask: I don't kno to tired to think that hard
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: Like 3 hours ago
27. Stepped outside: Went to the movies
28. Had Sex: Uh still waiting
29. Romantic memory: Don't wanna share
30. Your Good Luck Charm: I have a lucky thong does that count?
31. Person You Hate Most: Um...I dont really hate anyone
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: Turned 15, went to camp, met J.f., Stephen, and Annie.
33. On your desk: Dust...idk
34. Picture on your desktop: Blink 182
FAVORITE
35. Color: Red, black, and white
36. Movie: Supertroopers, Enemy At The Gates, Pretty Woman, Half Baked, Full Metal Jacket, SNL The Best Of Will Ferrel
37. Artist: Blink 182, Taking Back Sunday, Atreyu, Remembering Never, Coheed and Cambria, Guns N' Roses, Ac/Dc etc...
38. Cars: Black Ford F-150 Harley Davidson limited edition and 65' Mustang Cobra red with 2 black racing stripes
39. Ice Cream: Cookie Dough, Chocolate
40. Season: Summer
41. Breakfast Food: Cereal, Eggos
WHO
42. Makes you laugh the most: J.f., Stephen, and Mark
43. Makes you smile: Everyone that loves me :)
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: Sleeping, Eating, or talking to someone who cares
45. Has A Crush On You: Hmm...idk J.f. maybe?
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Haha would it be a crush? (J.f.)
47. Who Has it easier - Girls or Guys: GUYS
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: You'll never kno : X
DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: Yes
50. Save IM conversations: Nope
51. Save E-mails: Yes
52. Forward secret E-mails: Nope
53. Wish you were someone else: Of course many times
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: Yes, guys have it so easy
55. Wear perfume: Yes indeedy...Tommy Girl
56. Kiss: Oh yes
57. Cuddle: I love it
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: Yes
HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your best friend?: No she's a chick
60. Made out with JUST a friend?: Yes
61. Kissed two people in the same day?: Nope
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day?: Uh never experienced that one yet
63. Been rejected: Yes who hasnt
64. Been in love?: Again Yes
65. Been in lust?: Pssh you know
66. Used someone?: Nope
67. Been used?: I hope not
68. Cheated on someone?: Yes, it was the biggest mistake of my life :(
69. Been cheated on?: Nope
70. Been kissed?: Yes...me like
71. Done something you regret?: Yes look to question 68
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: I bumped Anthony's arm at the movies lol
73. You talked to?: J.f.
74. You hugged?: Mason
75. You instant messaged?: J.f.
76. You kissed?: Not saying...It's on the 'DL'
77. You yelled at?: My mom
78. You thought about?: J.f.
79. Who text messaged you?: No one
80. Who broke your heart?: Hmmm...
81. Who told you they loved you?: No one :( wait Ayesha :)
DO YOU...
82. Color your hair?: Yes
83. Have tattoos?: I wish
84. Have piercings?: Did...
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nope...I'm a lady in waiting
86. Own a webcam?: Nope
87. Own a thong?: Uh of course...many
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: Wow no
90. Habla espanol?: Si, Mi caballo de plastico es muy muy travieso y barato
91. Quack?: Hmm can't say I have
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything?: Nope
93. Smoke?: Cigs or Pot?
94. Schizophrenic?: Nooooo
95. Obsessive?: Idk I guess everyone can be?
96. Compulsive?: Nope
97. Obsessive compulsive?: Not that I kno of
98. Panic?: I have once
99. Anxiety?: Nope
100. Depressed?: Can be...
Firsts
First job: Babysitting?
First screen name: Cant remember
First funeral: Never been
First pet: Dog
First piercing: Ears
First tattoo: Hopefully 3 years
First credit card: Dont got one...I'm not spoiled
First kiss: Can't remember...make out or peck?
First enemy: Have I had one of thos?
First favorite musician: Idk probably something dumb
Lasts
Last car ride: To the Movies
Last kiss: Uh 2 weeks ago
Last movie watched: White Chicks
Last beverage drank: Water
Last food consumed: A cup cake Mmm...
Last phone call: J.f.
Last time showered: Like 3 hours ago
Last CD played: Blink 182
Last website visited: This one
Now
Single or Taken: Single
Sex: Female...and waiting.
Birthday: 6-16-89
Sign: Gemini
Siblings: 1 Older Sister
Hair color: Blonde
Eye color: Blue
Shoe size: 7
Height: Wow like 5'1
Right now what are you...
Wearing: Pajama pants and my camp shirt
Drinking: Water
Thinking About: SLEEP and J.f.
Listening to: Nothing
A - Age: 15
B - Best Friends: Rhi, Amber, Ashley
C - Chore you hate: Taking out the garabage
D - Dad's name & occupation: Dave, Southwest Airlines Pilot
E - Essential everyday item(s): Chap stick :)
F - Favorite actor/actress: Will Ferrel
G - Gold or silver: Silver
H - Hometown: Mesa, Arizona
I - Instruments you play: Dont play one...Wanna play the guitar tho. J.f. teach me :)
J - Job: I need one $$
K - Kids: Yes, preferably a boy
L - Living arrangements: House with my Nazi parents
M - Mother's name and occupation: Joanna, Beautician
N - Name and who are you named after: Alison....uhh myself
O - Overnight hospital stays: Nope not yet
P - Phobia: Heights and spiders
Q - Quote you like: "Look at the faces, listen to the bells. It's hard to believe we need a place called hell..." Jim Morrison
R - Ride you have: Uh my legs
S - Shows/Soaps you like: Viva La Bam, South Park, Pimp My Ride, What Not To Wear
T - Time you wake up: Around 12
U - Unique habit: I dont think I have one...
V - Vegetable(s)/Fruit(s): Salad, Coliflower, Apples, Peaches, Bananas, and Oranges
W - Worst habit: Cracking Nuckles
X - X-rays you've had: My spine
Y - Yummy food you make: I buy my food...I'm lazy
Z - Zodiac Sign: Gemini

Raaa Mornin'...

2004-06-28T17:41:12Z

Wow I'm tired. I'm pretty bored too. I really hate my parents they're Nazis no joke. It's summer and they dont let me do anything. Yes, It sucks ass. Yesterday hmm I did nothing really. I talked to Annie and J.f. on the phone for awhile, and to J.f. later that night. :) I talked to Stephen and Mark online. Heh Mark he's one silly crack baby. Stephen is awesome. Yay, he helped me pick out my new s/n which is Asthenia059. So IM me there for now on. MmmK sounds good. Uh it's wierd but I miss camp. There was always something going on and now that I'm home I'm bored out of my mind. Maybe I should go back. HaHa. Probably next summer tho. I'ma be a C.I.T. :) Well ya I'm hungry but there's nothing to eat. Argh I'm angered. So ya I'm going to go find something to eat. I'll talk to ya'll online or on the phone or whatever floats your boat. (480) 357-6688<--Call me I'm bored.

_Stella <3 I miss you J.f. and Annie of course.

Last night it came as a picture
With a good reason, a warning sign
This place is void of all passion
If you can image its easy if you try
Believe me I failed this effort
I wrote a reminder this wasn't a vision
This time where are you Houston
Is somebody out there will somebody listen

Should i go back should I go back should I
I feel alone and tired
Should i go back should i go back should i
I hope i won't forget you

My head is made up of memories most of them useless delusions
This room is bored of rehearsal
And sick of the boundaries
I miss you so much...

Finally home...

2004-06-27T20:52:37Z

Camp wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. I met alot of awesome people J.f., Stephen, Annie, Mark, Ali, Linz, Layne, and Dena. I miss you guys. You all made camp so fun. Yes, I ended up staying for 2 weeks. It was maddness. The second week wasnt near as fun. I missed J.f. and Annie alot. I cried Wow I cried, but it wasnt for this week. I cried for last week. I cried because I missed everyone and missed how much fun it was. I happy that I'm keeping in touch with everyone tho. :) Man you guys are hilarious. Well ya I'm gonna miss J.f. and Annie when they're in Missouri. And everyone else cuz they live far away. So ya everyone call me and we'll chat. (480) 357-6688.

<3 Stella

"I'll miss your laugh your smile..."

At the Aunt's...

2004-06-03T03:11:17Z

Yep I am still in Boston. God It's cold and boring. I so badly want to be home. I've been doing pretty much nothing but hanging with the family. Argh...I dont think anyone misses me, which is kool. Oh well I never really figured anyone would. I'm sad I miss everyone. You guys need to call me. Well I think I'm coming home tomorrow anyways. Geeze why do I still have to have these feelings for Ajay? I'm surprised he still talks to me, but I'm happy he does. We're supposed to hangout before I leave for queer camp. :) Ya I got nothing much else to say. I hope everyone's having a great summer. Call me while I'm here, the number is in my other entry. I love ya'll... </3

In Boston...

2004-06-01T23:06:46Z

Yes everyone I'm in Boston.:( Hmm...There is not much to say. We got here Friday and I'm staying at my aunt's house. Friday night when we got in we went to my cousin's wedding rehearsal dinner then came home and crashed. Saturday we worked on wedding stuff and then Sunday was the wedding. It turned out really nice, I was very happy.:)The wedding was pretty boring for me I was the only "Younger," one there but I chilled with my cousins girlfriend Alissa. She's kool, she kept slipping me some of her drinks.;)I was really happy tho cuz I got to see my cousin Michael (the one with the band) he's so awesome and hilarious. We talked almost the whole time and made fun of the old people dancing. It was great. Monday I sat around all day alone at my aunt's and watched t.v. and talked to Jay. Today I had to wake up early and went to my aunt's house and we took Michael to the airport. :( He went home to Florida. (He's like my coolest cousin) Then we went to downtown Boston and looked at all the shops you know...Now we're at my aunt's and about to eat dinner. I dont kno If I'll be able to update again till I get home. I'm supposed to come home tomorrow, but sadly I think we aren't returning till Friday. Ahh...It's so cold here I can't take it. Well all this lovey dove wedding stuff is really getting to me. I'm starting to miss him so much. Ya Jay is so sweet and nice to me, he treats me how I want to be treated. But I dont feel the same about him as I do Ajay. I never will...(for the record NO me and Jay are NOT together) I'm single. I love Ajay so much. I feel so horrible for what I did. I kno I'm not even close to perfect, but I wish Ajay was still the same person the one I love but treated me the way Jay does. I don't know, I'm one of those people who need to feel wanted and loved...Well ya If anyone even reads this and you want to get ahold of me give me a call at (480) 518-6989. I miss ya'll...

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stellas_journal @ 2004-05-25T16:55:00

2004-05-26T00:06:08Z

I think I'm going to kill myself...Hopefully it'll be good fun. Maybe I'll be able to write in here again, who knows...

</3 How do you make shattered hearts?

Te amo...

2004-05-24T01:06:47Z

I haven't written in awhile and I'm sorry...There's nothing I really want to talk about. Things are all fucked up in every aspect of my life. Nothing is going right. I don't even kno what to think anymore...I'm sorry for everything I've done to you. I'm still wishing things will change. </3

Arrrggghhh...

2004-05-14T03:42:11Z

God I am the worst dancer that ever lived. I tried so hard...All I wanted was to do good, and I blew it. Arrrggghhh...I dont even wanna kno what I got. I QUIT. :(

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I'm talkin to Chub-bay baby...

2004-05-13T04:54:38Z

Hehe today was alright. I made it back to second auditions and I have to go tomorrow. I'm way nervous, but I hope I do good. Everything is still confusing...When people ask about you I dont kno what to say? I'm still hopeing things work out, but no matter what I will always care about you. Wish me luck...<3